Mum/Dad, I don’t do drugs, I don’t smoke, I don’t drink, I don’t party, I don’t stay out til 3 am on a weekday. I don’t skip class, but I don’t make you proud either. You’re always nagging at me because I’m not focused, because I’m chatting to a friend while completing my homework. I’m not fucking perfect, there’s kids worse than me, why can’t you see that? I’m never mad at you, I’m just mad at myself for displeasing you. I’m sorry.

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1 year ago  /  Notes

Bitter truth. unfortunately its a lie.

as you can see. i’ve posted days ago that i have accomplished my black belt degree. but sad to say. i did not :(. its so impossible. its because the reason for me not passing the test is because they told me that i was not able to get my brown belt degree. but FYI! i’ve been a brown for about years now! i just dont think its fair that i have to pay 2k for that. it was never my fault. i feel bad. and specially now. i dont know if im still honored as a ssg pres. it hurts so much that people dont acknowledge me just because i cant go to school because i have to represent my school in diff. contests. it hurts so much that they just suddenly dont understand my part. i know its not thier fault. but please. they could atleast avoid those heartbreaking comments. in tagalog “SAMPAL SAKIN YUN”. if other kids from school thinks that im enjoyinh the fact of me being excused during contests is fun. well guess what. ITS NOT! it may be exciting and stuff like that. but it was never an advantage for me. i dont get anything in return for that. may an extra co activity. but i really doesnt matter. marami nawawala sakin! hayyyyyy.. NVM. saka nako mag blog la ako sa mood :(

1 year ago  /  Notes

Black belt promotion

there are lots of crazy sides about getting a black belt. and there are a lot of types of black belters, some are FAKE some are true. doesn’t mean that its real, your officially a black belter at that instant. doesnt mean that you wear a black belt your considered as a black belter. are you getting my point? my question is. WHAT IS THE ESSENCE OF BEING A BLACK BELTER? a TAEKWONDO BLACKBELTER. so about the crazy sides. lets step in to my side. my journey of earning. (TAKE NOTE EARNING!) a black belt.

I started my TKD(taekwondo) life when i was still on the 2nd grade during the summer clinic in Pangasinan Main Gym. at first they did not like me to join that kind of sport because first of all, its a VIOLENT sport, but actually it is not. and second its because im a GIRL! and they told me to just go on with my Piano lessons and my Ballet dancing. C”MON! ballet? piano? those are fine. but c’mon its TAEKWONDO for crying out loud, all the action and stuffs like that the kicks the shouts. kicking ass, taking names. yeah! haha! and ofcourse! i really did my best to let them say yes. so they did. and i continued and continued. they told me that i could earn my black belt. and i thought that was fast. and yeah. i didnt like the idea. because, i dont want to be a “just because” black belter. so okay i did not get the promotion at that instant. so i continued with my training until there came the time that i have to graduate 6th grade and my highschool studies will be interfering with my taekwondo. so that was hard. there came a time that i have to give up something just so i could cope up with the time alloted. HASSLE! swear! i almost gave up my tkd. but that was just like giving up half of my life. i live taekwondo, i breath taekwondo. taekwondo is my life. oha?! echos!. haha. well anyway i squeezed in my schedule just so i could still go on with my tkd life. there also came a time when i really knew that i deserve getting the belt. its because alot of people said so! i i know so! im not saying im as good as an olympic player. its just that. i know i could go on and face the challenge. but then a lot of my sched is not TUGMA with my time. i cant just throw away those responsibilities. so i set aside my tkd. so years had passed by. i’ve been to division meets, regionals, nationals and even international games. if only theres an intergalactical, i would have joined it! okay super. so as 2010 came. i have lots of challenges. i really said to myself I HAVE TO GET THE BLACK BELT NA!. so i thought it was that easy. but it was not. so my balck belt promotion is on DECEMBER 12, 2010. but then let me just share my very spacious schedule.

dec.1-2 Division schools pressconference

dec.3-4 Highschool Retreat(Baguio City)

dec. 5 Sunday

dec. 6 English Fest

dec. 7 training

dec. 8-11 training

dec. 12 PROMOTION

dec.13-15 Regional schools pressconference

dec.16 due date of tickets

dec. 17 Family Fun Day

Dec. 18 Christmas Party

and guess what theres still no exact date for the GIFT GIVING for the project of our schools supreme student govenrment. did i mention that i was also elected as the SSG’s President? another conflict on my sched. as i was saying i thought there was no hope for me getting the degree this december. but guess what within that hectic schedule was supposed to be one of my third quarter exams. but guess what? the school allowed me to take the exams next year because i will be joining a three day contest at the RSPC. that was a BOOYAH moment for me. thank the Lord for that.

so i pushed through with my training. and it was really hard for me to memorize all the TKD forms. with my head full of things to do. so my friend named Loreto R. Velasquez Jr. or should i say “PONG” helped me learn the forms and self defenses for the black belt promotion. i was so relieved when he offered his help when i thought i couldnt memories everything. so he did taught me. and also. Maam Joycelle B. Marindatu also helped me [ractice and taught me some of the techniques that i should remember during the promotion. and ofcourse. sir Eduardo Bince. my coach and trainor. he told me that i really should push thru my promotion even though others thought it was hopeless.

so as the promotion day came.

it was AGONY! HELL! i cant really say that it was too much. its like a Boot camp. it wasnt hard. i prefer CHALLENGING. i have friends to stand by my side during those times. inspiration during the hard times. my lil sis Cheska, and mukmuk my <3. i’ve finished half of the day. and i said to myself. just another half and im done with this. just dont give up, i knew i could get pass through this. so then it was really hot and i feel sick. but still i went on with it. i was interviewed by my Daddy’s Batchmate Batch11 Sir Tony Calicdan. and i think his really cool. and guess what i have answered the questions CORRECT!. as in TAMA! :)) but in the part where i have to perform the poomse. i had a little snitch. he made me do knuckle push ups. but i knew i deserve those push ups. but still i passed that. so brown to brown sparring then next was the receiving, i was really tired. im at a junior division. age group, but they placed me in a higher group, the SENIOR group. i have no right to complain. or maybe i do. but i chose not to. maybe because they think im really good. HAHA! echos! kapal!. haha. natawa ako dun. haha. so yea. i was hit alot of times in my head and guess what. i was even punched in the face. yea i know it was a foul move. and my whole world started looking like a very dark blury place. i dont know what is right and i cant even mention my own name and i dont even know how to cry. but what i can remember is there was a thought stuck inside my head and that was 

if i give up now, i wouldnt reach my goal, but if i tried harder and pushed myself to the limit, after everything i’ll just realize im a winner

so i stayed up. and stayed to fight. i cant see. but i have to go on. then they shouted YEAHEY WELCOME!. i was really dizzy but then i smiled. my kuya accompanied me to the side and mukmuk taked care of me. they were really worried bacuase they told me i couldnt even remember thier names at first.

but i just kept smiling. cause i know. just one step next and i’ll get my goal.

so i have Bukol on my forehead, a black eye, pasa on my ear, pasa on my lips. and a blood clot on my chin. yeah i look like i was finished with a bullfight, but still. i feel happy. yung bang ang sarap sa pakiramdam.

the up next is the breaking. and again they told me i have to break the 1 inch wood board. and yea! i did not break the board at once! ikaw kaya sumipa no? haha. so i really tried hard. and it feels good knowing that the senior blackbelters keep on supporting me and giving me words of encouragement. there like my DADDIES super daming DADDIES. and guess what i did not give up. it took me a lot of time to break those boards. but then i did break it with my feet.. yea. so as the ritual went on. they have to spank us with thier belts. with us crawling beneath them. and as it was anounced that i was a black belter. i cant believe that all those years. finally. im A BLACK BELTER. and yes i did it! i knew i did it.

it feels so good! im officially a blackbelter!

OFFICIAL!

so the essence of being a taekwondo black belter is being

strong at heart, and never say never. its about being strong during defeats and rising every after a fall. its about perseverance and the spirit of being the best of the best. the fighter inside us. and most of all its about doing it not only for our taekwondo brothers and sisters, but it is also for the LORD. in everything we do put God First and he will crown you and direct your efforts into success.

because without him. me with my black belt I am Nothing.

=Batch 41 P-Noy=

1 year ago  /  0 notes